November 2024

It feels like I have so much to say until I sit down to try and write.

My brother got married. The wedding was beautiful. I love life events, particularly when they make you feel a million things. I couldn't stop feeling immensely grateful to be alive to experience all the love and happiness in that moment. It made me want to be a better person, which I think it's impossible to feel like that without also feeling a little like you weren't doing your best in the first place to be a good person. That doesn't mean I felt bad or anything. I just couldn't help but feel like I wanted to try harder and be better, because I was so happy and felt so good to be there.

I have started knitting my first sweater ever (Step by Step Sweater by Handmade by Florence). I think this is an important milestone I have been putting off due to lack of confidence in myself. To absolutely no one's surprise, my sweater is coming along excellently. I am enjoying the process so much more than I thought I would. I thought it would be much harder to keep track of, but I'm handling it just fine. My process has been polished from working on my Sophie Scarf. I don't think I would be having such a good time if I had tried to knit a sweater sooner though. I can't express just how enjoyable working on it has been.

It's almost time for my family trip to the mountains and I'm realizing I haven't edited any footage from last year. I'm looking forward to knitting, reading, wearing cozy clothes, and just being content in general. I would say my life is pretty great when you really weigh everything out, but I am very very busy all the time. I feel like my weekends are immediately taken by chores and responsibilities, every weekend. Even when I have 2-3 hours to lose myself in a hobby or project, it's not the same as being in a clean airbnb with nothing to do except hang out and relax (and knit!!!).

My husband and I haven't been able to stop listening to P!ATD Live in Denver concert. It's been said a million times but I would do anything for AFYCSO Ryan's version. His singing at this concert gives me goosebumps. I wish he would release new music. I also wish the Young Veins continued making music.